Late last night, another mama and blogger posted her thoughts and feelings. (linky-do)
I am not near as eloquent as she, but she puts to words what a lot of us are feeling. Questions we'd like answered.
Previous to that, two other mama posted their thoughts and feelings on their blogs as well (linky-do 1, linky-do 2 - she has several posts, so make sure to check them all out.)
These are woman who worked so hard to help build a4 as a community. Helped those who have now deleted and blocked us from their friends list become recognized, so that they too could get an iPad (Part of the rules are to actively participate).
I wish I had the words to explain to all of you how much this has hurt. Deep down to our cores. To learn that some of who we considered to be our friends, that you're calling us names behind our backs, some at least have the decency to do it to our faces.
There is this huge divide and I wish I could find the words to express to you still on the other side why it is we are fighting so hard. We use humour as protection, but still, then our humour is turned on us. (PS, we spell humour in Canada this way, it's not a friggin typo! - See comic relief!).
I understand peoples desire to protect a4, and Gary James. I understand your innocent until proven guilty.
What I don't understand is how you can turn your backs on your friends, on people you called family? People you had daily conversations with? Even if you do not agree with their belief.. whatever happened to agree to disagree?
How you allow someone to dictate to you who you can and cannot be friends with? (He has said, anyone who is friends with any of us will not be getting any help from him!)
How you can stand by and watch this same person vilify these same people? These people who helped him build his community to what it is?
How you sit by quietly while those he promised apps to (50/50/50 tour) are now being denied those apps because he's angry at them. For asking questions for pete sakes!
How you can sit back and condone his behaviour on this blog, on twitter and on facebook.
It truly baffles my mind. Even if I didn't know all that I know, if I saw a friend being hurt this way, you're darn right I would be there standing up for my friend! Going hey! WTF! You don't treat people that way!
Some of you claim that we're drama seekers, or attention seekers, or something equally as foolish. Have you stopped to think that man, this can't be easy for them either? Maybe they're telling us this stuff over and over and over again because they really do care?
I have been asked why do I keep blogging about this, why don't I just leave well enough alone? The answer is because I care. Even though I am hurt, and I could easily walk away, I care. Even about those who have deleted and blocked me.
Even if you don't agree, I feel as though you are being taken advantage of. I do not wish anybody to be taken advantage of. Even those who I don't know.
So I'll keep googling. I'll keep blogging. Until we all get answers to these questions.